open ⋆ memory sharing psl / meme post

[moes]

You know the drill: this will be my open post for memory sharing with any of my characters.
If you want anybody else on my muselist, feel free to give me a heads up either via PM here or message me on my plurk (endlesseight)!
You can see the memory as a dream, as a movie, as a flash while you're walking past someone or walking with that someone, or perhaps, you're in the memory yourself! The option you choose is totally up to you.

Spoilers for the characters' fandoms will exist! All threads will be content warned for, however.

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"sisters" | cw: heaven's feel spoilers, family abuse mentions, sororicide mentions

[alreadybroken]

[ This particular memory opens up to a cavern with two people there. The first one being Sakura herself, her appearance different from the norm. Across from her seems to be a young woman, a little older than Sakura, holding a sword.

Surrounding the red clothed woman is many large shadows: one, two, three, too many to count.

And then a voice calls out: ]

Es läßt frei. Werkzeug!

[ A flash of light causes each giant shadow to dissipate. Six already fall by the sword. ]

Wha— [ Sakura is completely shocked by this, and it shows in her eyes. This shouldn't be possible. ] No way— Es erzählt— Mein Schatten nimmt Sie...!

You're too persistent! Gebühr, zeweihaunder! [ The sword blazes with light, emitting seven different colors showing its extraordinary power. ] Es läßt frei. Eilesalve—!

[ It bathes the cavern in a golden light. ]

Hah—!

[ She stares at the other girl, her sister, in surprise, completely taken aback. ]

No way — it's not possible.

[ At those words, more shadows rise up to the challenge, more than ever before. ]

—You're not holding back. The people of the Association would faint if they were here. They could keep a department running for a hundred years with that much magical energy.

[ Sakura's sister continues to cut them down relentlessly, and Sakura keeps talking, frustrated. ]

—And what are you, cutting them down? I'm pulling out magical energy thousands of times your capacity. You don't have enough strength to even kill one of my shadows, so why…?"

We're just having a pure contest of power. I can't dispel a curse. I'm merely using my magical energy to eliminate your magical energy that's creating the shadow. Can't you tell?

I'm saying that's impossible…! You don't have such magical energy. No, the light you're firing is like... [ She pauses, and then realizes something, and then continues. ] …Is it that sword? I don't think it's possible, but that's copying the power of Saber's Noble Phantasm. Is it a limited weapon, activated with your small magical energy, that's specialized in killing shadows?

Huh? You can't tell? What have they been teaching you, Sakura?

Wha— d-don't mock me…! That's the only sound explanation…

There's nothing to explain. This isn't a copy of Saber's Noble Phantasm nor a shadow-killing demonic sword. Sakura. This is Zelretch, a gem sword passed down the Tohsaka family.

Eh...? Zelretch...?

I can't believe this. You don't even know the name Zelretch? ...I don't even want to explain, but in short, it's your natural enemy. You use souls as a prepetual motion machine to create magical energy. You're just a poor imitation of the Third Sorcery. And I use an imitation of my great master, who travels across infinite parallel worlds. So it means I'm a copycat of the Second Sorcery...!

[ The blade flashes and the shadows keep going down. Fury rises up within Sakura. ]

Ah... ah.

I don't even need to get close to you. This is actually a projectile weapon, and you're hiding yourself in the shadows.There's no problem with exchanging blows until one of us runs out of power. …Well, I guess the ceiling will give out before we do.

[ Eyes narrow and her expression scrunches up in what seems to be frustration. ]

No way... Exchange blows? Don't joke around. You don't have any magical energy left. No matter what that sword is, you can't attack anymore—

Really? Then let's try. Come on, Sakura. You won't reach me, no matter what you do. It's a drastic treatment, but consider it a fee for your lesson. I'll make sure you regret doing whatever you wanted just because you got a bit stronger.

[ Sakura's mouth opens wide as she sucks in a breath, getting angrier at her sister. ]

Not yet! Es befiehlt — Mein Atem schließt alles...!

Eins, zwei, rand verschwinden—!

[ Now, Sakura summons the giant shadows out of fear. She's terrified to the point where she doesn't notice the sweat off her sister's brow. ]

I won't lose when it comes to stock, but the question is how long my body'll last—

Why—!? I'm stronger than anyone. Nobody can scold me. So how can you catch up to me like it's nothing...!? Someone at your level can't do anything but get swallowed...!

There's where you got it wrong. Even if you have a large supply, it's the caster that uses it. Do you get it? No matter how much water you have, the amount that comes out depends on the size of the faucet. The Magic Circuit called Matou Sakura can only instantaneously release about a thousand. Then we both have the same release rate, no matter how much you may have in your stock...!

[ Sakura cries out out of shock by the many slashes her sister makes with that sword of hers. ]

So! I don't need to prepare a supply as large as yours! I merely need a thousand magical energy each time...! Such a large supply of magical energy is just a waste—!

……! That distortion's the same as the Holy Grail— Nee-san, it can't be…!?

Yup, you're not the only one pulling magical energy from elsewhere. But don't get me wrong. Mine's not something that's needlessly expanded like yours. I'm merely using the mana in this cavern from parallel worlds.
I'm taking a thousand magical energy from one of the infinite parallel worlds and attacking you with brute force…!

[ Sakura gasps, still angry. ]

No way. That's ridiculous...!

Do you get it? If you have an inexhaustible supply, I have a limitless supply—!

[ The cavern rumbles beneath their feet. ]

Haa— ah, ah—

[ The shadows stop. ]

No matter how many times you try, the result will be the same. That's all that your power can manage. Have you cooled your head now?

Don't be ridiculous! This is unfair! Why, Nee-san, why are you always the one!

[ And there's the true nature of Matou Sakura, the fury, the grudge she's kept in for so long. ]

That's right...! I was jealous of you...! You stayed at the Tohsaka's house and were always brilliant. I hate you for never knowing any trouble.That's why I want to win. I wanted you to praise me, just once...! Why can't you let me have a little thing like that...!

[ The shadows start to reappear, and her sister slashes the oncoming shadow. ]

Why!? It was different for me. We were sisters, we were born to the same family, but I had nothing! I was trapped in the room with worms and was treated as an object! I never led a human life, and nobody said anything kind to me...!

[ There's so much hatred in those words, but it's not directed at her sister, but instead, at herself. ]

I almost died every day. I always looked at myself in the mirror, wanting to die. But I was scared of dying, and I didn't want to disappear by myself...! Because I heard that I had an older sister. I'm a child of the Tohsaka family, so I always believed that my older sister would come save me...! But you never came. You just kept smiling, having no idea. You took no notice of the miserable girl and lived happily in the Tohsaka household.

[ Sakura then looks at her sister with a frown, her voice still filled with sadness, anger. ]

Why...!? We're sisters and we're both human, so how come you're the only one smiling like that...!? [ She then narrows her eyes, her voice raised. ] I quit being human...!? Of course! I haven't been treated like one for a long time. My eyes and hair were changed, and every cell in my body was changed so I could become the magus of Makiri...! Eleven years, eleven years, nee-san! The Makiri didn't train me. They didn't expect anything from my intelligence. They taught my body and made me into a mere tool that uses magic. They'd laugh that I'd become a better tool the more pain they gave me. They started putting poison in my food, so even eating became a terrifying agony. Once they put me with the worms, I had to ask for Grandfather's permission even to breathe…!

[ She starts to cry, but her sister just silently cuts into another shadow. Eventually, Sakura laughs. ]

...Aha, I know I'm crazy. But it hurts, and the more I begged them to stop, the more delighted they became and the more they tampered with my body. [ And then her expression runs cold. ] So I'm not smart like you. It's not like I can do everything like you. All I can do is to take my pain out on others.

…But is that my fault? The ones who made me like this are Grandfather, and my father that sold me to the Matou family, and Nee-san who didn't come save me…! I didn't become this monster because I wanted to…! I was forced to become one because everyone cornered me…!

[ But then- ]

...Oh. What of it?

Wha— [ Sakura's completely and utterly shocked. ]

Things like that happen. It's not like crying will change anything, and besides, being a monster doesn't sound so bad. It doesn't hurt now, right?

Nee-san— it's all because you're like that—!

I see. Then let me tell you something. I never thought it was painful. I could turn aside most problems, and there was nothing I couldn't do. So I've never been cornered like you, and I was never interested in what the cornered people thought.That's how I am. I don't understand other people's pain. To be honest, I don't know how much pain you've suffered or what cruel treatment you've received. I'm sorry, but I'm not even going to try to understand. But Sakura... Even as insensitive as I am... I never thought I was blessed.

Huh—?

[ To Sakura, that doesn't make any sense. ]

What—

[...]

Now you tell me you weren't blessed? How can you say that— That's not good enough—! I don't want to hear such things! I'm not going to listen to your excuses! Nee-san, I—!

[ Don't need you anymore, she doesn't say aloud. And the memory comes to a halt there. ]