open ★ it's 6 days before christmas and thirst spoke to me

[moes]

❤ THE LAST THIRST OF THE YEAR

It's the most wonderful time of the year!! Long story short: I'm thirsty, please feed my thirst with kisses and dates and other cute shippy things. Feel free to leave an empty comment with your prefs or start something I'm willing to write starters and stuff. NSFW content is fine, too, if y'all want that. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ANYWAY HERE ARE YOUR FUN OPTIONS FOR TODAY:



ooooor maybe ask for other options?? come at me i'm ripped (and thirsty)

also some potential prompt suggestions??
random scenario
pocky game
caught in the rain
zombie apocalypse
sick day
hypnotism
reincarnated lovers
soulmate au
hurt/comfort

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[dereban]

What?!

[ She's slack jawed and her expression twists from its initial anger and frustration into complete abject horror, immediately shaking her head in what seems to be an obvious fear before realizng what she's doing, tenses up and steels herself.

No, no, noー this cannot be happening. ]

I didn't hear anything about that, but regardless, you need to take responsibility for it all. I don't want magic. I have never in my lifetime wanted it. We need to find a way to get rid of it, because it's not something that was mine or a part of my past life and this isn't a gift to me. It's a curse.

[flametheif40]

[Al nods, listening to her, seeing the horror on her face, made him relax his expression, into one similar to sympathy and sadness.

sympathy for her being faced with fear, sadness as it dawns on him, he might remotely be responsible.]

Look, I THOUGHT after getting that memory, that it would be awesome if you had magic of your own, to defend yourself.
But I would NEVER force it on you.

If that thought was all that it took, I'm truly sorry. I never want to hurt you.

The hawk will need Magoi, which it can only get from a person willing to give it.
I doubt it will come for you again, most likely is looking for someone else willing to take it.

If it does, I will fight it, or try to give the Magoi it needs to survive and tell it to leave you alone, that I will feed it what it needs.

I might pass out; if so, you need to set me, or something on fire, I have febreeze and a lighter in my bag, make sure I absorb the flames, otherwise, I die.

[dereban]

I can defend myself without using magic.

[ Her voice is immediate and clipped. While that's not entirely true, given that she hasn't taken even the slightest bit of self-defense lessons, she can't help but be aggravated at the assumption that she would think in the slightest bit that "magic is awesome" and that her using it would also be awesome.

But reality differs from one's imagination. ]

Humans have been able to defend themselves without magic for a very, very, very long time, and that sure as hell isn't going to change now. And for the record, I only understood half of that explanation and I'm not going to set you on fire, are you a fucking dumbass?!

[ She kind of wants to just walk awway from this conversation as soon as possible, but with the comment of death hanging in the air, she's. . . not really willing to risk it. ]

[flametheif40]

[Al rolls his eyes, he hates it when people call him dumb for the fire thing, plus he is pretty sure she is in denial.]

I have SAVED you with magic, I wanted you to have magic of your own in case I wasn't around.
For you to save yourself, do you honestly think after all the times I saved you, I wouldn't worry even a little about you?

Look, I should have started by saying, fire doesn't do shit to me and I will be fine if you set me on fire.
My magic protects me against it.

The key thing about the hawk...it lives off Magoi, people's life force, it can only get that from someone willing to give some of their life for it. It only has a limited time before it dies or goes back to wherever it came from if someone doesn't take it.

All my magic is fueled by Magoi, so every time I saved you, I literally have given a part of my life for you.
One day, it might kill me, if I can't get to some fire on time, or I spent too much at once.

[dereban]

[ She is, in fact, not in denial in the slightest bit, but he sure can think that all he wants. Nevertheless, she can't help but pull her hand in her stomach for a second, laughing a bit. It's not laughter that thinks this is funny, however; it's something a little crueler - more or less mocking. ] "I wanted you to have magic of your own in case I wasn't around"? What — oh my god, what kind of crap are you spouting? Don't you see that by saying that you obviously don't really give a shit about me in the slightest bit? Saying it like that isn't selfless. It's egotistical. Besides. What do you even really know about me? [ As someone who's walled herself up ever since she was younger, she hasn't exactly shared much about herself outside of common knowledge: her name, her age, the high school she goes to, the fact that she's a transfer student from Yokohama. Simple things. ] Anyway, continuing from there. If you're trying to convince me that "oh, I'm literally giving my life for you, you should pity me" is going to work? Don't. Like I said, doing something like that isn't selfless at all. You're just trying to win my favor.

[flametheif40]

[The laughter, hurts him to the core. He frowns to try to hide just how much.]

You really haven't paid attention, have you?

I wanted you to have magic, for you to save yourself.

Not because it saves me the trip or for you to be grateful, if that was all I was after, I would have let you die already.

You put a huge wall up, with all of this suspicious shit you throw out.

So, of course, I don't know much, who can?

But that wall tells a story too, a sad one with pain and loneliness

Things I was forced to live with too.

I admit, it might be a bit selfish on my part, because if I could help you get better, maybe I can help myself too.

Or at least get closer to being a good person.

[dereban]

You're the one who hasn't realized it. [ Inaba pays attention. In fact, you could even argue that she pays too close attention, and her expression doesn't seem to waver or shift in the slightest bit, her demeanor staying cold. ] Or paying even the slightest bit of attention to yourself, or the words that you're saying. If a person wanted me to be "grateful", for getting powers, or saving their lives, or whatever other crap — why would they let me die? There's no point to that. I already said it, didn't I? What you said earlier is egotistical. And more than that. You think my story is sad? You think I'm putting up a wall? Stop assuming such bullshit. You don't know anything about me! You're just — you're just projecting, aren't you?!

[flametheif40]

Did I say I was a saint?

I said I wanted to be a better person. That's all.
I don't need other people to survive, I can do that myself.

I'm not assuming some idealistic bullshit, I'm making conclusions based on data.
I thought you would appreciate that.

[Despite failing a grade, he is pretty perceptive. A trait he seems to share with his other self.]

This entire time, you have talked about yourself as a means to an end.
In no way have you tried to improve your situation
or get something for yourself,
and you don't even share small things about yourself.
Ever.

So yeah, I think you have a wall up and you're using it to hide from the world.

and since your not going to do it for yourself, let me make the suggestion,
how about we go and get some burn cream, I'll pay, you can choose which one you want so you don't get the idea that I'm trying to make it worse.

[dereban]

Well, your conclusions are wrong, because let me point a few things out for you: one, I never said you were a saint, nor did I say any shit about 'needing people' in the way you're probably assuming. [ She sighs, something a little short this time. ] Anyway, shut up. I'll repeat it once again: you don't know shit about me. I'm not self-sabotaging myself at all and again-- you're projecting. Stop it. "Improve my situation"? I don't have problems with my life. I have friends. I have a family. There's no reason for me to be unhappy, and I'm not. And I'm not so selfless to not do things for myself. To get things for myself. You just simply don't see it at all. [ She puts her hand up dismissively. ] And I appreciate the offer, but I'll do it on my own. I can handle myself. I'm not some damsel in distress that needs to be coddled, or a child.

[flametheif40]

[Al also sighs]

I meant your current situation with the burns.

I didn't mean to imply that you are powerless, opposite of that actually.

You are choosing this instead of doing something for the burn, I saw that as your strength of will to not show weakness, so much to the point that you don't want to appear to need anything from anyone.

You make people engage you on your terms, even if they helped you, that doesn't mean you were a powerless damsel or a helpless child.
I saw strength and assumed pain or tragedy built it and weakness usually comes with it.

[Al extends his hand to her, his tone much more gentle and relaxed than it was before]

You want a hand up? Cause I'm sticking around for a bit in case I misunderstood the hawk, as it looks like I misunderstood you

[Even though he doesn't believe what she said about her life, trying to argue this further wasn't going to help.
It's clear to him now that the wall WASN'T his imagination, and she is protective of it.

Hopefully, she gets his point, he doesn't see her as weak, even if he does believe she has sadness, he thinks she is strong.
Even if he does have to help her from time to time.]

[dereban]

[ It's fine if he doesn't want to believe her, but hilariously enough. . . she didn't lie about a single bit of what she said. She doesn't have a bad life at all in the slightest bit; she has friends, family. No tragic backstory at all. Sure, Retrospec's been fucking up shit with the whole memories stuff and all that, but most of he memories that she's regained so far have been pretty mundane things. ] I said that I can handle myself, didn't I? [ She doesn't need people to coddle her. Although she does tense up the moment he speaks about 'weakness', and her tone immediately drops into something annoyed, a clear contrast to his gentleness. ] Well, you assumed wrong. I have no tragic backstory, sorry to tell you. Were you expecting one? Because reality isn't like fiction. You can't just fucking expect every single person you meet to have some pain or tragedy like you're thinking. And more importantly? I'm not weak in any way. [ Does not take that hand, however; it's not as if she was knocked down or anything, after all. ] Anyway, I'll just get going. [ And as soon as she says that, she immediately turns on her heel and walks off, obviously heading towards the nearest drugstore or pharmacy. ]

[flametheif40]

Never said you couldn't Xena.

[He said with a light-hearted tease]

Honestly? Ya it would explain a lot.

I assume everyone has either a story or a reason and most of the people I've seen have a story to explain who they are.

If what you're doing works and you're happy, you do you.

[For a strong person, it seems like she doesn't even like the implication of weakness, he was just affirming her strength but she focused on weakness.

What was with her need to supposedly not having one? Especially if there was no story to be had?

Regardless, he doesn't think much has changed. He still will respect whatever walls she puts up, even if she denies it exists until she chooses to let him in. He just hopes he will be a good friend then, unlike his previous failure.

When she turns heel to leave, he simply said goodbye with patient gentleness, turning the other direction and decides to just hunt for the hawk.]