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[dereban]

[ It had been a complete accident.

The fact that she was now at his bedside just waiting for him to wake up after getting hit hard in the head was definitely not a part of today's plans for her, but he seemed to be relatively fine otherwise.

So now all she could do, really, was wait. ]

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[dereban]

Mmm.

[ She leans up against him a bit, trying to rest her head on his shoulder. ]

It's hard to, a lot of the time. At least, for me.

[spacialeyes]

[That does make him tense for a moment. Then he slowly begins to relax, tilting his head to tap against hers. It feels different from his memories.]

It is... But it's strange.

I know time is flowing normally when I feel it with my power, but for reason... It feels like it's slowing down right now?

[dereban]

Well... that's probably because we're like this.

[spacialeyes]

Is this normal for humans then?

[dereban]

Who knows. I've lost what's 'normal' at this point.

[spacialeyes]

I wouldn't know where to begin either... But I wouldn't mind if this was 'normal.'

[He closes his eyes and sighs contently.]

It feels nice... Sitting like this with you...

[dereban]

Ah.. well. It's comfortable like this.

[spacialeyes]

Mmm… [He’s pretty sure that he could happily drift off like this. It’s warmer than his memory of sitting with her.

But his mind comes back to her earlier statement.]

… Do you wish for your old “normal” still, Himeko? Even though you feel it is so far away?

[dereban]

In some ways.

[spacialeyes]

… I see. Mm.

[His smile softens, almost sad.]

I think that it sounds nice too… If I can give it to you, then I will. What parts do you want back..?

[dereban]

. . . huh?

Ah, well, that's-- shouldn't you already know the answer to that?

[spacialeyes]

Statistically, yes. But also, with Yuuto’s bias and self-loathing.

[dereban]

... he shouldn't hate himself over it. Most of the stuff isn't related to him, anyway.

[spacialeyes]

Then my memories really aren’t of much help, hm..? But if it’s a wish you have, then as kami, I would like to hear it and try to answer.

… Well. As a biased kami.

[dereban]

Hmm...

You can't steal Yuuto spotlight you know. But I'm not so sure you would have an answer to me wanting to be human, 100% again.

[spacialeyes]

It’s true that I can’t ever be him.

[He turns his gaze upward, though he can’t actually see the sky.]

I can understand the value in being human. Moments like these… They are simple things that only you humans can have. I don’t think it is wrong to long for them.

[dereban]

Mmm. It... isn't as if I can't have these types of moments like I am now, but it's not the same.

[spacialeyes]

… with my power, the most that I could do is undo the moment in your life when you lost your humanity. If that were you wish, I would grant it.

But it would also undo the days you carved out afterward.

[dereban]

I wouldn't want that. I... would lose too much.

[spacialeyes]

Then the most that I can do is to watch over you until you find a proper solution.

[dereban]

...are you okay with that?

[spacialeyes]

It is not as if I have a shortage of time... or that Yuuto would allow for anything less.

[dereban]

Mm... well, you're already going to be watching me all my life, I suppose.

[spacialeyes]

If that is what you want, then mm. I can do that. But I cannot exist like 'this' if you don't wish for it.

[dereban]

What, are you asking for me to actually wish for you to have your own body separate from Yuuto's...?