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[dereban]

[ It had been a complete accident.

The fact that she was now at his bedside just waiting for him to wake up after getting hit hard in the head was definitely not a part of today's plans for her, but he seemed to be relatively fine otherwise.

So now all she could do, really, was wait. ]

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[spacialeyes]

Statistically, yes. But also, with Yuuto’s bias and self-loathing.

[dereban]

... he shouldn't hate himself over it. Most of the stuff isn't related to him, anyway.

[spacialeyes]

Then my memories really aren’t of much help, hm..? But if it’s a wish you have, then as kami, I would like to hear it and try to answer.

… Well. As a biased kami.

[dereban]

Hmm...

You can't steal Yuuto spotlight you know. But I'm not so sure you would have an answer to me wanting to be human, 100% again.

[spacialeyes]

It’s true that I can’t ever be him.

[He turns his gaze upward, though he can’t actually see the sky.]

I can understand the value in being human. Moments like these… They are simple things that only you humans can have. I don’t think it is wrong to long for them.

[dereban]

Mmm. It... isn't as if I can't have these types of moments like I am now, but it's not the same.

[spacialeyes]

… with my power, the most that I could do is undo the moment in your life when you lost your humanity. If that were you wish, I would grant it.

But it would also undo the days you carved out afterward.

[dereban]

I wouldn't want that. I... would lose too much.

[spacialeyes]

Then the most that I can do is to watch over you until you find a proper solution.

[dereban]

...are you okay with that?

[spacialeyes]

It is not as if I have a shortage of time... or that Yuuto would allow for anything less.

[dereban]

Mm... well, you're already going to be watching me all my life, I suppose.

[spacialeyes]

If that is what you want, then mm. I can do that. But I cannot exist like 'this' if you don't wish for it.

[dereban]

What, are you asking for me to actually wish for you to have your own body separate from Yuuto's...?

[spacialeyes]

Oh... No. I don't actually know how that would work... More that, 'this' me will only exist in your memory, right? I'm going to disappear when Yuuto wakes up. This fragment of Spacetime will soon be lost in the whole again. I am only a droplet in an ocean.

[His gaze shifts forward again as he admits,] Even 'Yuuto' only exists because he is loved and wanted.

[dereban]

[ She'll lean a little more, frowning a bit. ]

I care about Yuuto a lot, but... I will miss you.

[spacialeyes]

[He notices her being so close, but isn’t sure what to do. His instinct is to tilt slightly towards her, wondering if he should bring an arm around her.]

… I wonder what I will feel? Most likely nothing. An existence like this being as temporary as it is.

[He does lift his arm, but is still too timid and uncertain to touch her.]

So you don’t need to waste your heart on thinking about me, you know. I likely won’t be able to mind.

[dereban]

...it's not a waste.

[spacialeyes]

You’re far too kind to say that… I wouldn’t mind believing that was true until I go.

But ultimately… I am as you said. A fragment. I was very lucky to have someone to remember me. Thank you, Himeko.

[dereban]

That's because it is true, you idiot.

That's why... you should do what you want to, until the end.

[spacialeyes]

… I see. Then.

[His voice quiets. He’s a lot more awkward about this than Yuuto ever was.]

May I- Touch you..?

[dereban]

...Huh? Ah - um. Sure.

[spacialeyes]

I-I don’t know how Yuuto does this without being strange- [He reaches out for her hand, which seems to already be more physical contact that he knows what to do with.] … Humans are so warm.

[dereban]

[ And she'll lace her fingers with his. ]

Hmm... well, maybe it's out of enjoyment?

[spacialeyes]

[His fingers slowly interlace with hers while he watches very closely. It’s strange to him how neatly their hands join. Experiencing it is different from seeing it in a memory.]

… Mm. It’s nice. I’m really here with you.

I do enjoy it, I think? This heart is racing… I’m not sure if that’s me or a side effect of Yuuto’s body.