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[dereban]

[ It had been a complete accident.

The fact that she was now at his bedside just waiting for him to wake up after getting hit hard in the head was definitely not a part of today's plans for her, but he seemed to be relatively fine otherwise.

So now all she could do, really, was wait. ]

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[spacialeyes]

It is not as if I have a shortage of time... or that Yuuto would allow for anything less.

[dereban]

Mm... well, you're already going to be watching me all my life, I suppose.

[spacialeyes]

If that is what you want, then mm. I can do that. But I cannot exist like 'this' if you don't wish for it.

[dereban]

What, are you asking for me to actually wish for you to have your own body separate from Yuuto's...?

[spacialeyes]

Oh... No. I don't actually know how that would work... More that, 'this' me will only exist in your memory, right? I'm going to disappear when Yuuto wakes up. This fragment of Spacetime will soon be lost in the whole again. I am only a droplet in an ocean.

[His gaze shifts forward again as he admits,] Even 'Yuuto' only exists because he is loved and wanted.

[dereban]

[ She'll lean a little more, frowning a bit. ]

I care about Yuuto a lot, but... I will miss you.

[spacialeyes]

[He notices her being so close, but isn’t sure what to do. His instinct is to tilt slightly towards her, wondering if he should bring an arm around her.]

… I wonder what I will feel? Most likely nothing. An existence like this being as temporary as it is.

[He does lift his arm, but is still too timid and uncertain to touch her.]

So you don’t need to waste your heart on thinking about me, you know. I likely won’t be able to mind.

[dereban]

...it's not a waste.

[spacialeyes]

You’re far too kind to say that… I wouldn’t mind believing that was true until I go.

But ultimately… I am as you said. A fragment. I was very lucky to have someone to remember me. Thank you, Himeko.

[dereban]

That's because it is true, you idiot.

That's why... you should do what you want to, until the end.

[spacialeyes]

… I see. Then.

[His voice quiets. He’s a lot more awkward about this than Yuuto ever was.]

May I- Touch you..?

[dereban]

...Huh? Ah - um. Sure.

[spacialeyes]

I-I don’t know how Yuuto does this without being strange- [He reaches out for her hand, which seems to already be more physical contact that he knows what to do with.] … Humans are so warm.

[dereban]

[ And she'll lace her fingers with his. ]

Hmm... well, maybe it's out of enjoyment?

[spacialeyes]

[His fingers slowly interlace with hers while he watches very closely. It’s strange to him how neatly their hands join. Experiencing it is different from seeing it in a memory.]

… Mm. It’s nice. I’m really here with you.

I do enjoy it, I think? This heart is racing… I’m not sure if that’s me or a side effect of Yuuto’s body.

[dereban]

It could be both.

Although from experience... it's usually just you, though.

[spacialeyes]

Y-You would have experience with this, huh..? It almost feels scary. [His fingers finally fold around hers, though his grip is still soft and shy.] What about for you? Is it weird for Yuuto’s body to do this? I don’t know if this is too tight either..? I’ve never done this before.

[dereban]

Mmm... it's not. It's nice, actually.

[spacialeyes]

Thank goodness… Just a couple more seconds like this..? [He closes his eyes and sighs contently.] I won’t ask for anything more… This feels nice. This moment is mine…

[dereban]

Are you sure...? I don't mind if you'd want to do more.

[spacialeyes]

[He shakes his head, opening his eyes to meet her gaze.]

I’d worry about hurting you. I’m still new to having a body… I don’t want to do something incorrect.

This already feels wonderful. [He grins,] I’m already so lucky.

[dereban]

You're pretty simple minded.

I don't think you'd be able to hurt me, though.

[spacialeyes]

That is quite untrue! There is nothing “simple” about this at all..!

[He pouts in a way unbefitting of kami,]

I am experiencing a number of complex sensations as a result of holding your hand, you know. It’s complex-minded..!

[dereban]

Oh? Is that so...? Does that mean if I went a little further you'd have complex feelings about it?

[spacialeyes]

Hueee… [His grip on her hand tightens just slightly, like she’s a lifeline, before he relaxes.] I-I don’t know..? How many complicated thoughts and feelings can a human body handle..?