what is love, baby don't hurt me ( kotomine shirou au; closed )

[peopledieifkilled]

[ It had been several years since he had declined Kiritsugu's offer and decided to live in the church with Kotomine. Now that he was a teenager, he was feeling rather... conflicted. Even though most of the time, he felt completely empty, there was someone who made him feel something in his chest, and he didn't understand what it meant at all. Which is why, on Saturday, after classes and mid-afternoon kenpo training, he decides that he needs to ask.

The question sat there for quite some time, but he wasn't sure how he was supposed to just simply bring it up. Besides, he didn't understand it to begin with. Maybe it was something that he had to actually worry about, which caused him to furrow his brow in frustration.

Might as well come out with it.

As Shirou placed his hands on the church doors, he pushed it open, hoping that his old man was there. But he paid no mind, nor any consideration as he raised his hand to his mouth, yelling across the church halls and pews. This was important, after all. ]

Hey, old man! You're there, aren't you? Don't tell me you're playing hide and seek again.

[ Because he knew that he tended to hide in the shadows. But the thing he hoped the most was that he didn't have to run into Gilgamesh... He'd probably give him more nonsense about this situation. ]

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[blackmass]

. . .

[The look on Kirei's face as he walked in from the courtyard to greet his adopted son spoke volumes of 'what have I told you about yelling in here', so it seemed that Shirou might have been able to avoid the actual lecture this time.]

Not at all, Shirou. I should think myself far from difficult to find.

[peopledieifkilled]

Well, it's difficult when the lights are out. Gilgamesh didn't steal all the candles again, did he?

[ He's joking, of course, but he wouldn't be surprised if he did. But at the very least, he wasn't chastised for yelling once again, which was a relief, because he didn't want to deal with two lectures in a single day. ]

[blackmass]

[it's dramatically appropriate, child]

[(gilgamesh totally took all the candles. they were his to begin with.)]

I'm sure you didn't carelessly shout across the hall just to complain about the lighting.

[peopledieifkilled]

[ He doesn't understand the concept of "drama" or "appropriate", old man. He's empty inside, how is he supposed to know these things? Oh, right, there's a thing called schooling. . . ]

No. Though I probably shouldn't have yelled. [ Shirou bows his head politely, even though he knows it's unnecessary. ] Sorry. I wanted to ask you something about things I don't understand. I think they're... feelings.

[ Kirei's son, having feelings? Nah. ]

[blackmass]

[what]

...Would you care to clarify that, Shirou?

[peopledieifkilled]

[ He doesn't exactly understand it, either. It's a confusing thought... to say the least. ]

Well, you see, lately... when I'm around Tohsaka, my face somehow seems to burn hot, and I feel as if my heart's about to burst around my chest. But it's only around her. You don't think she's managed to use a Geis on me, do you?

[ It's the only answer. It's gotta be. ]

[blackmass]

[god dammit rin you just delight in making Kirei's life difficult by proxy.]

Why don't you come out back and sit down--Gilgamesh is off doing who knows what, so the room's empty right now.

[come into my office and let's discuss this]

[peopledieifkilled]

Huh? ... Alright.

[ There's a pause, but... he'll follow his old man into his office rather obediently, even though he's rather concerned about the length of this lecture. This better not be any longer than thirty minutes, he's got things to do. ]

[blackmass]

[too fucking bad, kid.]

[from the way kirei's taking a seat behind his desk, looks like it's time to settle in and have a heart-to-nonexistent-heart]

I would think we can't completely discard the idea that she's enchanted you, given your own low magic resistance. [pot, kettle, shit magic circuits all around] But I would theorize that the answer is something much less easily countered.

[peopledieifkilled]

Is there... a way to find out if I am enchanted or not, though? [ He's sweating nervously at this point, mostly because he's worried that he might end up becoming a mind slave to Tohsaka...... He doesn't want to become a mind slave to Tohsaka.

But then he arches a brow curiously at his father's words. What? ]

"Something much less easily countered..."? What do you mean by that?