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yamaboshi2015-01-14 10:05 pm
harshwords) wrote in yamaboshi2015-01-14 10:05 pm
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i will protect you with these stained hands ( closed )
[The screams just didn't want to stop.
Her body shook with every rough thrust inside of her body; the phantoms that were recreated inside of Sakura making her more and more lewd, wanting more, but at the same time, becoming grossed out by it. Was this the pain that she had felt those last ten years? It hurt, and made her heart ache. She could no longer consider herself as pure, nor could she allow herself to face Naoki like this.
Sweat ran down her brow as she found herself waking up in her bed, yet again, her brow creased in frustration and clear fear. Although she was saved, the nightmare was never over for her, every now and again, the memory made her reel back as she covered her lips. Did he hear her voice? Although she had placed her whole entire mansion in a Bounded Field and refused to go outside except for the essentials such as school and buying supplies, she felt as if something was always watching over her, looming in close, as if to eat her whole eventually.
There were nights where she just couldn't sleep, the memories overtaking her, her body full of need. But she couldn't just simply ask Naoki for a favor like that. Not with the way that she was now, tainted and impure.
She had become exactly like Sakura in those last few days that she was stuck inside of her.
A girl who desired for men.
And she hated it.]
Her body shook with every rough thrust inside of her body; the phantoms that were recreated inside of Sakura making her more and more lewd, wanting more, but at the same time, becoming grossed out by it. Was this the pain that she had felt those last ten years? It hurt, and made her heart ache. She could no longer consider herself as pure, nor could she allow herself to face Naoki like this.
Sweat ran down her brow as she found herself waking up in her bed, yet again, her brow creased in frustration and clear fear. Although she was saved, the nightmare was never over for her, every now and again, the memory made her reel back as she covered her lips. Did he hear her voice? Although she had placed her whole entire mansion in a Bounded Field and refused to go outside except for the essentials such as school and buying supplies, she felt as if something was always watching over her, looming in close, as if to eat her whole eventually.
There were nights where she just couldn't sleep, the memories overtaking her, her body full of need. But she couldn't just simply ask Naoki for a favor like that. Not with the way that she was now, tainted and impure.
She had become exactly like Sakura in those last few days that she was stuck inside of her.
A girl who desired for men.
And she hated it.]
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And even now, he still doubted he did. Tonight proved he was right.
Hearing those screams, he raced to Rin's room, opening the door quickly and staring at her, concern clear.]
Are you alright!?
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[Sweat trailed down the side of her cheek as she hugged herself tightly, trying her hardest to show no emotion in her face as she grimaced.]
I'm... fine. It was just a dream.
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Do you need some water or anything?
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[There's a pause as her gaze lowers, staring at the floor emptily.]
Water's fine. Just put it over on the table when you bring it. And try not to get too close. [To me. Those words are left unspoken, but they're implied.]
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[The last words bother him, but he tries not to show it too much. Maybe she was angry at him? Made sense in his mind. He vanished, eventually reappearing with a glass of water.
He honors her words, keeping what he assumed was a fair distance away as he puts down the water on the table next to her.]
Here. If there's anything else you need, just tell me.
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[She takes the cup full of water, standing up rather groggily; she was never a morning person to begin with and the nightmare had made things worse for her end. Might as well take some medicine along with that water...]
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[He looked off to the side, wondering something. Might as well ask now.]
So...was the nightmare about me then? Is that why you don't want me to get closer?
[Made sense in his mind. There were times he let the demon nature take over in some fights, like with Berserker and Gilgamesh.]
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[She speaks the truth, at least.]
It was about the past.
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[He stops himself. No, she would have had nightmares when he met her. The war? Well, there was a lot of drama within, but there shouldn't have been anything to trigger anything. And the last person they fought beside Kirei was Sakura--
...Oh.
His heart twisted a bit. He was too late after all.]
...Sakura, right? When I was too busy dealing with those Dark Servants and you were with her?
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But when he realized exactly what it was about, she furrowed her brow taking the cup to her lips as she lets out a deep sigh.]
No. [A lie. A magus' mask was placed upon her cold expression as she continues.] It has nothing to do with you in any case, so it's best for you to ignore it for the time being. I'll be fine.
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It's hard for me to ignore it when you are clearly not well. Just try and let me help you, alright?
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[Her voice was angry and frustrated as she shook him off. If he attempted to do it again, she would hurt him. Her voice was cracking, and she could feel her body shuddering in fear.
To her, this sensation was disgusting.]
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Rin...this is something I really can't ignore.
[In her state, he didn't want to risk her expending unnecessary energy.]
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[There's a vein at the tip of her head. Don't anger her any further, Naoki. If she doesn't want to talk about, she's not going to.]
Now leave me alone.
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Not leaving this room. I won't touch you, I won't talk to you, but I am not leaving your damn side.
[And he wasn't budging. She could fire off a thousand of those shot spells, but it would take more than that for him to leave.]
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[She's standing up, keeping an eye on him and his movements as she starts to walk towards the door.]
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And just where do you think you are gonna go?
[Now he was feeling more like a concerned parent than a partner.]
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[What an asshole.]
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It's past midnight, and we both know you aren't insane enough to do that. Now stop fooling around.
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[He looks with concern again.]
You've opened up to me before. You trusted me during the war and with Sakura. Why won't you trust me now?
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[A nonchalant shrug.]
And I have no reason to answer you.
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[He throws his hands in the air, turning around so Rin wouldn't see his face; lying right now was risky given his facial expressions. He soon began to walk out the door.]
Go ahead then. If you hate me that much, you don't need my help. Not like I need your mana to stay in this world anyway.
[Naturally he wasn't going to let her leave alone, but he needed to at least be convincing. Maybe some time alone would help her.]
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[No seriously, what was that? Rin is actually shocked that he would assume that she hated him. She doesn't hate him. She's never hated him. No, she's scared.
Frightened.]
Idiot.
[She does walk out in a huff several minutes after he leaves, however. She plans on going out to Shinto.]
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As Rin prepared and traveled, Naoki took to the air, riding atop Kurama high above the skies. His demon's sight was incredible, and combined with the high altitude, scouting and spying were simple. Of course, he wanted to stay high up, less Rin sense him and his bluff.
Now if only it wasn't so cold up here...joining Kurama was something he never did. This was why. That, and the heights made him uneasy.
But he'd put up with that for Rin's sake.]