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[dereban]

[ It had been a complete accident.

The fact that she was now at his bedside just waiting for him to wake up after getting hit hard in the head was definitely not a part of today's plans for her, but he seemed to be relatively fine otherwise.

So now all she could do, really, was wait. ]

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[dereban]

It would be worth it. Besides, if it can't be done in my lifetime... no, I'll make sure it happens in my lifetime.

[spacialeyes]

You either care about him a lot, or you are incredibly stubborn.

[dereban]

It's a little bit of both. After all, I don't consider every iteration of Yuuto the same. I think he'd get mad at me if I did.

[spacialeyes]

That is true, but... For me, at least... I appreciate it. Thank you.

[dereban]

Your feelings do matter, after all.

[ And she reaches up to pat his head. ]

[spacialeyes]

Ah… Mm. [He’ll lean her way to help her reach him.] All of those lives and feelings are ‘mine.’ It’s strange, but I cannot deny it. Even the lives where things go horribly wrong.

[dereban]

I understand. Still - I want to help you. I already promised I would and that isn't changing. I'll use the power within my entire souls if I have to make things better for you.

And for all the Yuuto out there.

[spacialeyes]

[He frowns slightly,] Don't do that. Your Yuuto would be upset if you used your entire soul for something like us.

[dereban]

He would... but I still think that things need to change.

That may be selfish of me, though.

[spacialeyes]

And how would you hope to change things?

[dereban]

That's... a hard question to answer; after all, I haven't met all the other alternate 'Yuuto' yet. I don't know what they wish for, or what they want.

But I would want to give them a way to be themselves. A way to be happy, in the way they choose.

[...]

And you already know it, don't you? If the Yuuto I've fallen in love with wants to be the only Spacetime kami Yuuto to make the rest ease their burdens... I'll make it happen, somehow.

I... I know what I'm saying might sound crazy or even impossible. But I had been thinking about this from the start. And if I have to use my determination to do it, somehow... I will.

[spacialeyes]

[That earns a soft chuckle from him and he ruffles her hair again.]

You really believe in that kind of miracle, hm? If you were anyone else, then I'd say you were naive.

[dereban]

Ah, well... you aren't wrong to say it's naive. But - maybe just this one time, I want to believe.

[spacialeyes]

I am not surprised to hear that he has such an objective. [Since this person talking does have all of Yuuto’s memories.] But it may not be in your best interest..?

After all… To become the only Spacetime kami would mean to become what I am. ‘Your’ Yuuto would change.

[dereban]

I know.

[ Her heart crackles at the thought. ]

And honestly, it scares me. [...] If he did that, he might go back to being a lonely existence, and I... don't want that for him.

I'll eventually either go back to being with others or to a state of nonexistence eventually, but Yuuto...

[spacialeyes]

… Your concern is not unfounded. He will either become an eternally lonely existence or cease to exist. A normal life is not possible for “Yumeno Yuuto.”

[dereban]

I don't want that.

[spacialeyes]

It is an unfortunate fact. Without this power- this soul,- Kuroneko Satou and Yumeno Shugo’s child is not… “born.”

But this power is also not compatible with a regular human body.

[dereban]

[ ... ]

And changing the fundamentals of that wouldn't be easy. It could hurt them even more.

But still. I... don't want to leave him alone.

[spacialeyes]

You cannot stop him from being lonely forever, Himeko. That’s not a bad thing.

[dereban]

I can at least stop him from feeling sad.

[spacialeyes]

And how will you solve that?

[dereban]

You'll just have to find out.

[spacialeyes]

Being sad is part of being human, you know.

[dereban]

But not for eternity.