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[dereban]

[ It had been a complete accident.

The fact that she was now at his bedside just waiting for him to wake up after getting hit hard in the head was definitely not a part of today's plans for her, but he seemed to be relatively fine otherwise.

So now all she could do, really, was wait. ]

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[dereban]

You're not Yuuto, but that doesn't mean that I can't enjoy your company. Besides, it's not as if I can't potentially add you to my personal harem.


[ iNABA ]

[spacialeyes]

Inaba Himeko. [He taps her cheek lightly, meaning to imply that he would pinch her cheek like she had done to him if he were not a coward.] Remember what we said about making this weird. You can’t have two ‘Yuuto’ at once like this since we share a body. And our only difference is that one of us is dumber than the other.

[dereban]

Speaking the truth isn't weird. And I said nothing about having a threesome, so who's the dumber one now?

[spacialeyes]

I have not forgotten MirrorMe-san.

[He shakes his head.]

Regardless. Please do not joke about my complicated feelings. They confuse me enough without the additional help.

[dereban]

This and that are two completely different things. Besides... I wasn't entirely joking.

[spacialeyes]

[He falls quietly, seriously considering it as well. Then he sighs and moves a hand to his head.]

… I am serious about what I feel. But that does not mean you should feel the same. Some of the lives that make up “me” are not ones that you would be proud of, Himeko.

[dereban]

... I can't say that I know what lives you've led. But the fact that you're being honest about them now, to me says a lot.

Nobody's perfect, and it isn't as if the people I have had feelings for were all completely good people, either. But... I would accept that. Because people can change. And maybe it's selfish of me to want to believe that someone who is a part of Yuuto would want to live a life being a good person, rather than a bad one.

[spacialeyes]

Wanting to be a good person isn't enough. [He speaks with some bitterness towards his other lives.] Your Yuuto has already made grave mistakes. But there are worlds where 'Yuuto' does not have the strength to recover from his crimes.

[dereban]

I know.

But... everyone makes mistakes. And in the worlds where he doesn't have the strength to recover...

...I want to be able to fix that.

[spacialeyes]

That would require a lot of traveling on your part, wouldn't it?

[dereban]

It would be worth it. Besides, if it can't be done in my lifetime... no, I'll make sure it happens in my lifetime.

[spacialeyes]

You either care about him a lot, or you are incredibly stubborn.

[dereban]

It's a little bit of both. After all, I don't consider every iteration of Yuuto the same. I think he'd get mad at me if I did.

[spacialeyes]

That is true, but... For me, at least... I appreciate it. Thank you.

[dereban]

Your feelings do matter, after all.

[ And she reaches up to pat his head. ]

[spacialeyes]

Ah… Mm. [He’ll lean her way to help her reach him.] All of those lives and feelings are ‘mine.’ It’s strange, but I cannot deny it. Even the lives where things go horribly wrong.

[dereban]

I understand. Still - I want to help you. I already promised I would and that isn't changing. I'll use the power within my entire souls if I have to make things better for you.

And for all the Yuuto out there.

[spacialeyes]

[He frowns slightly,] Don't do that. Your Yuuto would be upset if you used your entire soul for something like us.

[dereban]

He would... but I still think that things need to change.

That may be selfish of me, though.

[spacialeyes]

And how would you hope to change things?

[dereban]

That's... a hard question to answer; after all, I haven't met all the other alternate 'Yuuto' yet. I don't know what they wish for, or what they want.

But I would want to give them a way to be themselves. A way to be happy, in the way they choose.

[...]

And you already know it, don't you? If the Yuuto I've fallen in love with wants to be the only Spacetime kami Yuuto to make the rest ease their burdens... I'll make it happen, somehow.

I... I know what I'm saying might sound crazy or even impossible. But I had been thinking about this from the start. And if I have to use my determination to do it, somehow... I will.

[spacialeyes]

[That earns a soft chuckle from him and he ruffles her hair again.]

You really believe in that kind of miracle, hm? If you were anyone else, then I'd say you were naive.

[dereban]

Ah, well... you aren't wrong to say it's naive. But - maybe just this one time, I want to believe.

[spacialeyes]

I am not surprised to hear that he has such an objective. [Since this person talking does have all of Yuuto’s memories.] But it may not be in your best interest..?

After all… To become the only Spacetime kami would mean to become what I am. ‘Your’ Yuuto would change.

[dereban]

I know.

[ Her heart crackles at the thought. ]

And honestly, it scares me. [...] If he did that, he might go back to being a lonely existence, and I... don't want that for him.

I'll eventually either go back to being with others or to a state of nonexistence eventually, but Yuuto...